you forget.

you forget how important it is to love the ones around you daily.

well at least i do. it is a major fault of mine. i don’t show them that i care as much as i should. it is something i struggle with. i heard that is normal 😉

but it is holidays and birthdays that remind us. and walking down the street and seeing something that reminds you of a loved one.

the beginning of november is hard for me. as is the end of april.

it’s my sister’s birthday.

november 3rd.

it’s the anniversary of her death.

april 28th.

i hate that after 10 years the memories fade. i wish i could remember her like when we were little. and she was giving my parents a hard time.

it’s her birthday that i remember. i remember the love i had for her and the love she had for me. and what our relationship was. and what i wish it could have flourished into. but i hold the fleeting memories close to my heart. and i open the emotional memories to remember her on her birthday. it seems fitting to celebrate her life on her day.

jennifer ashley

i was cleaning out my apartment during the hurricane and i found the bracelet that was hers that i kept to remember her. it was hidden under all my jewelry and not displayed. but i remembered as soon as i saw it the reason i kept it. so it is now displayed. it doesn’t get worn. it never will again.

it is hard to remember the good times and easy to remember the pain. but the little things like this help me.

sorry to be so deep on a friday. but i told you i was going to be more real. and this is me. alert the media…i have feelings 🙂

10 Comment

  1. Happy birthday to your sister! I'm so sorry that you had to lose her. I miss you!

  2. what Megan said!

    (I'm glad you're back.)

  3. Lots of love to you lady. Keep your head up, and always try to remember good memories.

  4. my heart hurts for you, I can't imagine losing a sibling.
    thanks for reminding me to cherish them (even when they're annoying the shiz out of me.) I'll be thinking of you tomorrow and wishing her a happy birthday!

    xo michelle
    peggyandbea.blogspot.com

  5. It breaks my heart on so many levels that I didn't know you lost a sister and that you're in pain. I'm thinking of you today and always, and I'm happy you're back, with feelings!!!

  6. Oh what sweet cherished sister memories! It's definitely important to feel and remember the light and life she lived:-) And it makes you a more sensitive and aware person to the world around you. Celebrate away! xoxo

  7. Thanks for sharing. Wishing you happy thoughts! Glad to have you back and open as ever!

  8. The Best at the best blog, so I love this site.

  9. You're right…it IS hard to remember the good memories instead of the pain of losing someone so close to us. But, I'm sure the ones we've lost would want us to remember them in a good way!

    Thank you for the reminder of showing love to the people we care about. I definitely take that for granted.

    You're keepin' it real girl and I like it! ;D

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